IKermenka_emotions

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My first public performance
There are quite a lot public performances in my life, I can say. :) But at school, I had (and I have it now) some fear of stage and public speech. I was always nervous, when we were told to recite some lyrics in front of the audience (my classmates or sometimes all schoolchildren, it was like a contest), I forgot some lines, my heart was beating hysterically. I was trembling, even my knees were shaking! I didn't like it, so when I was in the 11th grade (the last year at school), I decided to join a school theatre club to overcome my fears.:) I thought I had to face them not to hide. The New Year was coming and our teacher (a professional actress) was going to stage a fairy tale for the elementary school. The main charachters were Ded Moroz, Snegurochka and a Witch. I was a Witch. You know, it is not easy.:) "It is not so scary to perform for children than to adults", I was thinking and I was wrong. Children are the strictest spectators! "You can't decieve them!", the teacher said. We had so many rehearsals, and every time we were playing differently. We had to remember all the lines, all the script. I think I took off some weight.  So here it was! the day we were looking forward to! The first night so to say.  Oh my God! what was happening with me behind the scene you can't imagine. It was depend on me what holiday children were going to have - funny and merry! or awful. It was tickling! I was feeling like tickling inside of me.:) Someone can say butterflies in my stomach! My knees, my hands were shaking! I was trying to reremember all the difficult lines. I heard children voices, footsteps but I didn't see them. It makes me more nervous. I did play everything correctly on the first night. Everyone were impressed. So did I.:) But the second time we were playing for the another grade I forgot not just the lines but the whole extract! there were about two or three games in it! No one noticed it except our crew (I felt there was something missing, but i realized it at the end of the play). It was the shortest children new year holiday in the school history! because of me... but still it was the 4th grade, so they were dancing at the disco a little bit longer than the others. Surely I was told off by my teacher. She couldn't understand how it was possible to forget the whole extract. Now I remember it with a smile. This experience really helped me with my fear of public. But as my teacher said "everyone are nervous in front of the audience, even actors and actresses. it is normal. but the main thing is how you are trying to control it."  That was my first great public experience.